Teddy,

[Roxanne Weasley]

I'm a horrible person, just despicable. I left home early to get back to the castle without sending you an owl. I'd promised Scorpius I'd come back early. I'm so sorry.

Will you take my happy belated birthday and settle for some honeyduke's chocolate? Please?


Love,
Roxie

[Teddy Lupin]

NO!

I'm joking. You know I love chocolate! Of course I'll happily be bribed by some into forgetting that you forgot the most important day in the year.

So, how is the boyfriend, eh?

Love
Teddy

[Roxanne Weasley]

Don't be a tossed or next time I see you I'll kick you.
I can be just as mean as Dom, y'know!

No, buddy, the most important day of the year is July 24th, my birth day. Understand that?

I didn't have to get you anything, y'know. I just did because I love you.

Scorpius is good; he's getting his own place. But enough about my love life, how is yours? Talked to Vic Anyone Vic about what you told me at Christmas? Or have you found a new lover, aside from Jade?

Love,
Rox

[Teddy Lupin]

Roxie,

No you won't, you love me. And nobody can be as mean as Dom, trust me. Except maybe Draco Malfoy, but don't tell her that. She'll rant about how she's better than him or made him or something.

Second best day. Your birthday, not mine.

Of course. It's not like you gave me something to make me feel better about you not writing to me.

Oh, yeah, he told me about that once upon a time. How's he doing? My love life? I have none. I have a sex life. Why is everybody so interested? Er, no, I'm not talking to her. Not now, not ever. Why should I? I'm done being miserable. Besides, from what I hear, she's gone ahead, moved on, so I can too! It's not like I dumped her to protect her from that fact that her boyfriend was a depressed guy on suicide watch, or anything. I don't have a 'lover', not really.

Love and some more love,
Teddy

[Roxanne Weasley]

Teddy,
No I don't. I hate you, with a burning passion. You're a big meanie - no arse who doesn't love me nearly as much as I love you so I'll just shrink away and never talk to you again. Okay?

And Mr. Malfoy is an idiot. He's not mean, he's just despicable. Sadly, I've never had the pleasure of meeting him face to face, but telling me I'm worthless through post more than made up for it.

And Dom's on drugs. Leave her to her own devices.

No, yours is the second, buddy. Angels cried when I was born because of my sheer perfection. So shove it.

I won't give you anything next time.

Well he wrote me over break to let me know how fascinating question marks were and then told me he wanted to take my clothes off, which if he was sober and asked me in a sexy way I would have obliged. So when I was done being made at him, I went back to castle and he's doing pretty well. I'm worried about him rushing to find his own place. Mum said if need be he could bunk with us for a bit, but Dad probably will say no, or Scorpius will be sharing a room with him. Either way - awkward.

Okay, so we'll talk about your sex life. I won't talk about my sex life though because you already know more than you should for someone whom I consider a brother. But I will tell you that there will be no more almost accidents. Anyways - so a sex life eh? What are you doing, pub crawling and finding any girl with self esteem low enough to not even ask you your name before she humps your brains out, or are you playing it cool and engaging in sultry lust looks from across the pub, and then running off to the nearest cupboard or bathroom to have your way with one another?

Okay - disclaimer for the above words, Ricky writes awesome stories. That is all.

I won't sell anything else on Vic because I think you're trying to get yourself situated and I love you, but I don't think you're being entirely truthful to yourself either. But I understand.

Maybe you need a lover, you loosen up?


Love,
Roxie

[Teddy Lupin]

Roxie,

So, let me get this straight. You hate me with a burning passion, yet love me way more than I love you? You know I love you, right? I got you that pretty diamond necklace and came down to meet you for your birthday last year! And if you didn't have Scorpius, we'd totally be getting married.

You call him despicable and yet call him 'Mr.Malfoy'? Why? And he said that, that your worthless? I hope you know better than to listen to him!

Excuse me?! I really hope that's a joke.

Yeah, and so did all of us humans who got stuck with you. JOKING. I think you rock, okay? Wait, this letter thing was supposed to be you apologizing to me for not writing on my birthday! How did the situation switch?!

Liar. I'll feel very, very hurt like I did this time too.

You know, for a second I didn't realize the non-sober bit and I was thinking that he seems quite a lunatic when he writes to you, because when I write to him, he's more smart-like. Well, if he really doesn't find a place and you want to save him the awkwardness, he can stay with me. I mean, I won't be at home a lot because of work so he wouldn't feel obliged to hang around with me, and I don't have a girlfriend who'd mind and I'm sure his family would feel marginally better about him staying with me than with you, and it would save your boyfriend from George pranking him in his sleep.

Glad to know that you learned your lesson, love. More like, somewhere in between? Sometimes I go and get drunk in a muggle pub and pick up a remotely decent girl and sometimes I really flirt. Dominique's trying to figure out who I got my birthday bang from but I trust you, so I'm going to tell you. But you can't tell anybody!! Especially Dominique or anybody in your family because it was nothing and I'm sure it was just a one time thing!! I slept with Molly.

Who's Ricky?

I know I'm still in love with her, but I'm not going to hang around forever, okay? She didn't even bother to find out where I was those twelve and a half months after we broke up! Maybe if she'd cared, she'd at least try and find out what was on my mind when I did what I did by leaving her.

Maybe.

Love,
Teddy

[Roxanne Weasley]

Theodore Remus Lupin,

I'll try to answer this letter as rationally and nicely as possible, but I'm not quite certain how well I can because frankly, I want to kick you in your nuts. How's that for mean?

1) Yes, I hate you. Happy?
2) My mum taught me respect, even if people are despicable.
3) She's on drugs.
4) Of course Scorpius talks to you differently than he does me. He's having sex with me. I hope I can't say the same for you since you seem to enjoy illicit affairs, that and he's your cousin.
5) Erica Jordan - Lee Jordan's daughter, you know - Lee, my dad's best friend. The loud girl that slumps around gran's house just like a Weasley; want to sleep with her too?

Alrighty, I've tried to get to all my main points before I got mad, which didn't exactly work, but

Honestly, I'm not sure what to say to you other than I just can't believe you. Out of everyone you could sleep with, you sleep with Molly - a Weasley, your ex-finance's cousin. . . because that will go over well at family reunions. I can see it now, sitting in between Molly and Victoire during supper. You know, you have one hell of a brain, Lupin. You could have gone to a brothel if you were that horny.

And to top it all off you JUST told me that you are still in love with Victoire. Are you trying to come in between cousins? And what about Molly? What if this wasn't just a shag to her? Sure she acts like a feelingless idiot, but that isn't Molly. She has feelings, too. And those twelve months you were gone, not a day went by where Victoire didn't cry.

And thank you for telling me everything and putting me in the worst situation possible. I didn't even ask for you to tell me WHO you shagged. I just wanted to know if you'd had a nice birthday and in Dominique's words, a nice birthday fuck. Now what am I suppose to do? Because if Vic finds out i knew anything about this and never said anything, she'll hang me, but I don't want Molly and her to fight either.

You know what, I didn't hear or read any of this. That's it, because it didn't happen. Nope. Denial just isn't a river in Egypt. Nope. None of this. Nope.


-Rox


I really wanted to answer everything in your last letter, but see - when I got down to the very end I learned something that couldn't quite possibly be true because the Teddy I know doesn't do things that can hurt people to no end and hopefully not out of spite because then TWO people will end up hurt.

[Teddy Lupin]

Roxanne Angelina Weasley,

Whoa, what?! Hold up! You don't even know the whole story, you're just going on one sentence I gave you. I think you're being tad unfair here, just because these are your cousins who are involved.

You think I don't know what I've done. I may be on meds, but I'm not screwed up enough in the head to not know right from wrong, and you're right, if I wanted a nice, good, hard fuck, I would've gone to a nice bar, picked up some drunk girl and done here right there. It's what I do anyways, right and don't bother calling me a slut because Dom beat you to it.

As far as being around your family is concerned when it comes to this, I'm sure I can manage just fine. I know how to act around Victoire, thank you very much. And don't lecture me about how Vic cried for those twelve months while I was away because I wasn't far from her. I was in the same fucking hospital, waking up every fucking morning wondering if it would be my last day alive or not, so don't give me that bullshit about the breakup being hard on her, because it was worse on me. I didn't really have a choice when it came to leaving her.

And as far as Vic being pissed with you comes up, she has no right. I didn't cheat on her, nor did I do it to spite her. As hard as you might find it to believe, I actually am attracted to Molly and I do like her on some level. Not saying that anything's going to happen, but I'm not going to stop myself from thinking down that road.

Say no all you want, it isn't going to change a thing.

Ted

The Teddy you know? Are you talking about that prankster kid who helped you rig some of your first practical jokes on people, or the romantic guy who took your cousin out on dates, or the one who brought you jewellery for your birthday? Well, I'm sorry, but that guy's dead, Rox. You just haven't let yourself admit that yet. I'm sorry for not being the guy who you thought I was, but I'm not sorry for sleeping with Molly. I know I'm being a horrible person by taking this out on you, but who else am I supposed to turn to?

[Roxanne Weasley]

I'm being unfair because my cousins are involved? My family - Teddy, the same people who you told me over Christmas love me and always want the truth from me? Those people? So yeah, I am made. And how about you tell me what really happened.

I don't care what Dom called you unless you told her what happened? Did you?

And so now everyone is my family? What happened to my family being your family too? Or we're not family any more?

You're an arse Teddy Lupin a big fat arse meanie. You know what, you're selfish too. Only selfish people want to kill themselves and leave all of us who love him behind.

And I don't care if you and Molly fuck each other into oblivion because you've made up your mind and if someone gets hurt in the process then so be it. It's whatever Teddy.

And no, the Teddy I know doesn't curse at me in every other sentence or take things out on me. The teddy I know doesn't be a dick because he can.

So whatever.

[Teddy Lupin]

That's not what I meant, and you know it. I said that you're being unfair because to me it feels like you're automatically taking their side just because of blood. I get it, you love them and you want to protect them. I get it, but put yourself in my shoes for a second, will you?

Fine. Molly and I were hanging around during Easter at the Burrow and we got real drunk and she told me how she wanted to gift me a birthday bang and well, we had no inhibitions at the moment so one thing led to another. I know it sounds very horrible but, come on, I have to admit, she is attractive, and not in the sexy blonde way only but the cute, funny way too. And is it a crime if I think so? I'm going to have to move on someday, right?

Of course I didn't give her a name! I just told her it was a Weasley. Now she's wondering but I'm not telling her further.

We're family of course we are, but you think it's easy for me to sit around while everyone else gangs up on me saying 'oh my cousin this?' 'my cousin that' and 'you slept with a Weasley who's not Victoire' and that makes me feel like a real outsider okay. I feel like I just barged into this family and tore it apart, fine? I love you guys like a family Roxie but it isn't easy knowing that there's barely any people of my blood left around who actually give a shit.

What the heck? Is that all you have to say to me after I just shared one of my deepest secrets, which even Harry doesn't know? Thanks Roxanne. Thanks a lot. I should never have told you.

I just made it very clear that this is supposed to be private knowledge to avoid people getting hurt. I have no intention of going up to Vic and rubbing it in her face. Please, I'm more of a man than that.

I'm cursing at the situation, not you. Don't you get it? My life's fucked up anyway, no matter what I do.

[Roxanne Weasley]

I'm not taking sides, Teddy. I blame Molly as much as you and she's the one I blame more, if you want The truth. Merlin, do you listen?!

Do you love Molly?

So now she's going to ask me who, isn't she?

I'm pretty sure Uncle Harry would love to hear all that. We love you Teddy, Merlin you're thick headed. And all of that - you should have said that to yourself.

And excuse me, but you have a cousin out there that I love very much by the name of Scorpius who would do well by spending time with someone like you. Who needs family. And then I thought you had us.

Did you see that scratch on the parchment I sent you? Because if not look a little closer and maybe you can see what I really said, Teddy. I called you selfish. I said you were selfish for deciding you were going to kill yourself. Selfish teddy because I hate you. I hate you. Only cowards decide that they're going to leave behind ones that love you so much and count on you. Selfish because I'd kill you if you ever decided to kill yourself. Are you happy now that I'm crying and want to hug you? Are you happy?

Your stupid secret is safe with me because I don't even want to know.

Because you want it to stay fucked up. Stop self pitying, Teddy. Because people love you.

[Teddy Lupin]

(Ooc - I think he sent this reply after ignoring her for a couple of days, to cool off a bit, you know?)

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No, I don't love Molly, Roxanne. I do find her attractive though and I don't want to hurt her in all this mess, does that count for something? And what if I did love her, then what would happen?

She says she's ninety nine point nine percent sure who it is, so I think she guessed already.

I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't have said that but you lot are one of the only family I have and I'd hate to see you all get upset and chuck me out of the whole thing. I love you too, you know, otherwise I wouldn't bother fighting about this.

I did offer to let him come stay with me. Did you tell him that? I think you should.

I didn't want to kill myself, Roxie. If I did, I would've gone and done it, but I went and got help instead. And I'm sorry, but personally speaking, I don't think it was very selfish of me to break up with Vic because of it because I didn't want to see her lose me like that. But I did get help, didn't I, because I didn't want to leave you lot behind. I wish you were here because I'd probably curse some more and hug you too.

Something tells me it won't be a secret any longer, but thank you.

I don't

[Roxanne Weasley]

((ditto for Roxanne!!))
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Teddy,
I don't want to talk about Molly any more. I didn't want to hear it in the first place. If you love her, so be it.

And Dominique's intuitive, I'm not surprised.

You're an idiot if you think we'd chuck you out. We haven't chucked Uncle Percy out and he's a tosser ninety-nine percent of the time. So why would we chuck you out? No matter how much of a thick headed prat you are.

He's found somewhere is Sheffield, but he needs to find a job. So I haven't told him. But maybe you should tell him.

So what did you get help for then? If you weren't going to kill yourself? And why didn't you tell us? And I don't want to hug you any more - I want to punch you. Stop scaring me.

Well, I don't know any of it.

[Teddy Lupin]

Roxie,

I agree completely.

Yeah, well, she's also rather good at twisting words and getting things out of you. She knew I slept with a Weasley and just went ahead and assumed it was you and kept telling me stuff like 'Oh, I'm sure Scorpius will love that' and etc etc.

So he needs my help job hunting? Wow, that's very vague. What kind of job is he looking for?

I wanted to kill myself, I just didn't have the guts to. So even though I knew I couldn't, I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with those kind of thoughts. Besides, it would ruin Vic to be in a relationship with a guy who wasn't even sure of himself. And I knew if I didn't get help, one day I would reach a point where I found the guts to do it.

And I didn't tell any of you because I was kind of ashamed of it, not to mention, I knew that Vic would never let me leave her for a reason like that and I didn't want to fuck mess up her life.

Teddy.

[Roxanne Weasley]

Wait? You told her you slept with me?
Are you insane? I use to - never mind. I'm going to push Dominique into something and you down something.

Something to help pay rent, love. But he's not that . . . domestically savvy, so i don't know what he can do. He is seventeen, though, so I know he can use magic! Does olivander need any help? I think he may need a place too - if Sheffield doesn't work out.

So you did want to kill yourself? That's what I just asked you, Teddy. And it's not the guts, it's good sense. Next time I see you I don't know if I'll kick you or hug you or both, you know that right?

You already messed up her life, genius.

A part of me thinks you should have given Victoire that choice.




Love,
Roxie