Animal I Have Become

[Kale Lestrange]

Well... fuck.

I'm fucking screwed, that's for damn sure. I like Grace - Grace Longbottom. Yet Aria Matthews just knows how to get me mad and I know how to get her mad and she's fucking hot when she'd mad. Subsequently, I end up in broom closets with her.

And I don't know how to make it stop.

I know I'm being a fucking prick. It's not fair to Grace. I mean, we're not going out (yet), but still... Matthews could be a bitch and tell Grace what we've been doing together for the past, oh, 3 or 4 years. Granted, she'd probably lose her best friend... but I feel like I'm cheating on Grace.

I hate this. This is not me. My mother taught me to respect women. It's just Matthews... and I know I can't blame her fully. But this shit has got to stop. I can't keep fucking her. I feel like such a horrible person.

Am I?

[Kale Lestrange]

It's been nearly a month. And I've only dug myself a bigger hole. Great, right?

Let me list my mistakes for this month:

1) I slept with Aria. Again. We fucked in the shrieking shack - ironic, yeah? Heh. I knew it was a bad idea the entire time, but she;s just so forceful and demanding and, Merlin, she's really is hot. There's no denying it - I don't think I ever have and I never will. But, anyway... We talked (erm, argued) after we were done. She kept throwing it in my face that I was a bastard; the usual shit, you know? Then she brought up Grace and I kind of lost it. I mean, Aria is the one shagging me behind Grace's back! Yet she tries to seem all innocent. So I called her out on it - whilst not denying my faults. I haven't seen her since that day and I don't really want to.

2) I punched Bow Wood in the face. Funny, right? It would be if Grace hadn't been there. Okay, we all know that I hate Aria and she hates me. Well, Bow always brings her up in conversation and I'm not going to deny my hate for her just because Grace is there! (Besides, Grace knows we hate each other.) Anyway, the wanker dropped mashed potatoes on my head. So I punched him and walked away. I haven't seen Grace since then - because I've been avoiding her. But I plan on tracking her down, like, tomorrow.

Surprisingly, I did two good things:

1) I got stoned with Scorpius. (You're thinking, "how is this good?") Naw, it was, I assure you. We talked about our problems (alright, now I sound like Macmillan) and the girls we've fucked. It was a lot of fun. I hadn't smoked in about a year, so it was nice to do it. And with someone different made it all that much better. You never know how people will react to pot. However, despite the fact I felt fucking awesome, I only confused myself more about Grace. FML.

2) I might have helped Bella with her problems. She's sweet, that girl; I think she's sweeter than Ella is. I was trying to get her to fool around with me for a bit since we were both bored, but sometime I told her about my crush on Grace, so she refused. But, I'm sort of glad. ("You know you're getting old when...") It made me feel good about myself, actually. (Again with sounding like Macmillan.) I'm gonna be with her when she tells Nott her secret.... She's a good friend. I like her a lot.

[Kale Lestrange]

I kissed Grace Longbottom.

I, Kale Lestrange, kissed Grace Longbottom.

I KISSED GRACE LONGBOTTOM!

[Kale Lestrange]

Grace is now my girlfriend. Today is a good great day.