Will,

[Josh Parker]

Will,

I’m back in England. Before you burn this letter because I know you’re going to be furious that I haven’t written in over six years, please just read the rest of it. I’m apologizing for my absence and although that doesn’t quite cut it, I hope you realize that I truly am sorry.

I want you to come back home – to Samuel’s, that is, even if you don’t consider that a home anymore. I’ll be over for a few days until I find a place for myself and I expect to see you come and stay there. We can talk things out. Just because Samuel kicked you out doesn’t mean that you’re going to stay kicked out.

Josh

P.S. Wherever you are right now, don’t start smashing anything.

[William Archer]

You fucking cunt
YOU STUPID FUCKING CUNT
You left me. Why the fuck did you leave me? You're supposed to be
I was scared I was really lonely Why don't you care like I care about you You cunt I've been living on the fucking floor of my friend's older sister's apartment, I should be living on your fucking floor Is it that hard to pick up a fucking pen? Cunt

You expect me to come and stay there? Is that what you fucking expect? Well then. I guess I'd better fucking pack up and hurry over to the fucking Manor because my older brother Josh, the best older brother ever, what with leaving us and not giving enough fucks to even pick up a pen and write to me, expects me to be in that fucking Manor.

You've lost your fucking right to expect anything from me.

Fuck you I NEEDED YOU

It's not like you're my real brother, anyway. You're my half brother. And you've been gone so fucking long it barely feels like we're related anyway.

Will.

P.S. I'll fucking smash your face in Wherever you are, you'd better stay in fucking place. Because you don't get the fucking right to waltz back into my life after not even picking up a fucking pen for six years and writing to me. Don't come near me. I don't consider you family anymore. None of you. Except Lara Have you talked to Lara? You left her but I won't, not again

[Josh Parker]

William,

Yes, that's what I expect, and yes, you will do it, because I've asked you to. You've never had any right to judge me for my decisions, let alone lose your right to do so, but if you really want to play those cards, we can talk about how you left your mum and your sister when they needed you too, just as much as you needed me. They may not have said so, but it's true, and deep down, you know it.

If I'm just a half-brother to you then I suppose you shouldn't care much that I've been out of your life for so long and you should come the fuck home to stay with your FULL SISTER and FULL MOTHER.

Josh

P.S. You may think you've matured, but it's obvious that you're still the kid you were six years ago. I'll come near you if that's what I want to do, but you'd best stop with the attitude because it doesn't matter how much you hate me, you have no right to be punishing your mum and Lara. Grow up a bit.

[William Archer]

JOSHUA,

Yeah, let's talk about Lara. It's been, what? Six years? And she's fourteen. So you've not seen your sister since she was eight, right? Haven't even fucking contacted her. So you think you have the fucking right to accuse me of leaving her? Do you think you even fucking know her?

And I was kicked out of that fucking home. It's not your fucking home, so no matter what you say it doesn't mean I'm welcome anymore.

Yeah, I'm still the kid I was all those years ago. I'm the fucking kid who got left by his dad and whose mum doesn't love him as much as anyone else and who gets abandoned by the people he loves the most and no-one loves him as much as he loves them. I'm still the kid who fucks up every day. I'm still the kid who can't control anything he does. But you can't fucking judge me for that. You weren't there to help me stop being that kid.

Will

[Josh Parker]

William,

Reminding me of what I did doesn't make what you did any less wrong. You did leave her too, and although I did so first, you weren't any better. She needed you. She still needs you. Recognize your mistake and come home.

No, it's not my home, you're right. But the people I care about the most in the world live there, and you're one of those people but you don't live there anymore and quite frankly there's something wrong with that. I'll talk to Samuel, I'll talk to mum, and we'll sort it out. But only if you listen to me. I wouldn't have come back at all if I didn't love you as much as I do.

Don't fuck with me, and don't make this into an argument when it doesn't need to be one. The only way you can get this sorted out in your mind - hit me, rage at me, yell at me, whatever you need to do to make yourself feel better - is if you come over. We'll talk it out. I fucked up, alright? I fucked up and you have every right to be angry with me but you also know that I'm your brother, always will be, and you need to give me a chance to explain myself.

I'm here now, but instead of acknowledging that, you're just wasting time going on about things that have already happened and we can't change. The only thing we can control is what we do next.

Josh

[William Archer]

I GOT KICKED OUT, JOSH. My own fucking mother let me get kicked out. My own mother let me become homeless, alright? I didn't leave willingly, so don't you fucking dare spew out that crap about me leaving mum when she needed me. Mum and Samuel kicked me out, that's fucking it. It was THEIR FUCKING HOUSE, I couldn't do anything. And for your fucking information, I'm going to turn everything around. I'm going to be the best big brother to Lara, like you were to me the best big brother ever and I don't need your fucking help. We don't fucking need you, so fuck off. It's always about you and mum, isn't it? Me and Lara, we aren't even enough to pick up a pen and write to.

This isn't enough. You writing me a letter isn't enough. Fuck you. Fuck you. This is all you have? A LETTER AFTER SIX YEARS? A fucking letter? This isn't enough. This isn't enough to fix anything.

Will

[Josh Parker]

If you don't believe that mum needed you, then at least believe that Lara did. And like I said, she still does. This isn't a competition, Will. We're not facing off to decide who's going to be a better older brother to Lara, but if me being back makes you want to be a better brother to her than I've been for the past couple of years in order to prove a point, then fine. Whatever gets it through your head that she's there and she's alone and she needs you. She was your responsibility after I left, and she still is. I'm not here to take that away from you. I'm just here to help.

Well, I'm writing you the letter and telling you to COME HOME SO WE CAN FUCKING FIX IT, but you don't want to. This one's on you, because you're too stubborn to do anything other than yell at me. Figure out what you really want before you accuse me of not doing enough.

Josh

[William Archer]

Go fuck yourself. Go. Fuck. Yourself.

Will

[Josh Parker]

You can rage at me properly when you come home. If you're still going to be stubborn about it, tell me where you're staying and I'll come there to get you and you can rage at me then.

Josh

[William Archer]

Don't tell me what to do. Just do not tell me what to do. I don't know what makes you think you can tell me what to fucking do, but it's been six years. Six fucking years. You don't even know what's been going down. You don't even fucking know me.

You're just like my dad. You're just like your fucking dad. They both left, didn't they? Because that's all our family knows how to fucking do.

Will

[Josh Parker]

It's been six years but I'm still your brother. And I know exactly what's been going down.

Don't talk about my father when you know nothing about my father. He's got nothing to do with you and I'm nothing like him. Although I shouldn't be surprised, I really shouldn't because it's just like you to blame your faults on someone else.

Josh

[William Archer]

So it's my fault that you left us for six years? Okay then. That makes sense. Fuck you. You're the one pretending that you've not done shit. You owe everyone a fucking apology. You should be begging us to forgive you.

Will

[Josh Parker]

Did I make any inclination at all towards blaming you for what I did? I didn't, did I? I very honestly admitted to my mistake, and I've apologized for it, but I'm not going to beg.

Josh

[William Archer]

FUCK YOU, Joshua fucking Parker. You say you know what's been going on while you've fucked off to America? Right. Why didn't you contact us, then? You're talking about Lara and shit, saying I've not been there for her - fuck that, man. You could've contacted Lara. You could've contacted me. But we weren't enough for you to contact us. Six years. Six years of you not bothering to contact us. That makes me feel like I'm fucking scum. I wrote to you. I fucking wrote to you and I don't even know if it got to you.

You don't know shit. If you knew shit, you'd be begging for us to forgive you. I'll give you the downlow, then - when you first left we were well and truly fucked. We didn't have any money and you'd kicked dad out. Mum was smoking all day and staring out the window and being a fucking worthless Mum (don't get mad at me for that - I don't care how much you love her, she's a fucking terrible Mum) and Lara didn't even speak much - can you even remember that about Lara? Well, she doesn't fucking speak. If you get one word out of her mouth then it's a fucking miracle - and she only had my dog Leggit for a friend and I was doing what you used to do, all the alcohol and the drugs and the fucking around and you could've been there to tell me that it never worked, you could've written if you knew what was going down and said hey, Will, guess what, no matter how much you fuck around, nothing's going to change, so stop.

And then Mum starts dating this fat bastard and then we're to move in and I'm sitting there going, why the fuck would Mum be with this guy? She could get anyone she wants. Every time I go out in public with her eyes are fucking following her all over the place. But then I got it, you know. He's rich. So we moved into this big fucking Manor that had all the things we ever wanted but we still had fucking nothing and Mum's bloke is a fucking tool and she doesn't even love him, I know she doesn't love him. And then I got kicked out, I GOT KICKED OUT, I didn't run away, not like you, I got kicked out. And I wrote to Lara afterwards, more than you've done. And then I went to see my dad but guess what, he didn't want to see me either.

And I've got a job now, and I'm sharing a place, and I don't need some stupid prick who hasn't even bothered with me for six years to tell me what the fuck to do. I don't need you. I do not fucking need you, and neither does Lara. You can stay the fuck away. Go back to America. I've been looking after myself for six years now, and I'm going to do the same for Lara.

And you're exactly like my dad. And your dad. Your dad fucked off when he found out Mum was pregnant, didn't he? Just fucking bolted. He didn't want you, he didn't fucking write. That's what it's like. And my dad - you're like him too. I don't think he's seen Lara in six years either. Since she was eight. Fucking eight years old. You didn't let my dad come back. You kicked him out because he didn't give a toss. You deserve the same.

Will